Checking In

Anyone else find it kind of funny that the last time I posted I said something along the lines of "now that I'm semi-back to blogging..." - and that it was well over a month ago? Obviously the being back to blogging thing didn't really work out for me. I don't know what it is, honestly. I just can't find my mojo or something. I've always got a million things going on that I want to do and need to do and have to do, and blogging just kind of gets pushed to the side somehow.

I've though about quitting altogether, I've thought about making the blog private for awhile. But I really think I'll just kind of let it sit here quietly, updating whenever I find the time.

I really wish I had more motivation and time, because I would absolutely love to be documenting all of the hilarious and awesome things that are going on with Grayson these days. He'll be 15 months on Thursday, and he just gets cuter and funnier and sweeter and smarter and more defiant and independent every single day. He's just the best thing in the whole entire world, and I want to capture every single moment because they're all just too good.

I think really that's what it is. I'm so busy soaking up the time with him and the husband and Addie Jane that I don't want to take the time to slow down and write about it. I'm afraid that someday I'll regret it though, because all of these little things that he does right now that are so funny and adorable and memorable will someday be just a memory - and I have an awful memory. I already have a hard time remembering what it was like when he was a baby, and that was just a few months ago. I'm scared I won't remember all these tiny precious details.

So at the moment, here are some of the things I never, ever want to forget.

The way he gives kisses to anyone who asks - right on the lips with a big "mmmmwah". Today he seriously gave me about 15 kisses in a row, grabbing my face and smooshing his little lips on mine over and over again.
The way he says "Addie! Addie! Addie! Aaaadddiiiieee!!!" while running toward her. He is seriously obsessed with that dog, and she literally couldn't care less about him. This past weekend he woke up and she wasn't in here, and the very first thing he did was sit up and say "Addie? Addie?". It's precious. And sad because it's so one-sided.
The way he says mama. FINALLY. He didn't start saying it regularly until maybe a month ago. My mom says it's sweet because he says it with such love, and he really does say it in the gentlest little voice.
The way he "winks" at us, which is really just batting his long lashes and blinking those big brown eyes.
The way he giggles like crazy whenever the hubby kisses his neck or tickles him. I love seeing them roll around on the floor together.
The way he says "moh! moh! moooooohhhhhh!" Whenever he wants more of something. (Usually food. He's obsessed.)

The way he gets so excited and grasps his hands together and bends over and grins so big whenever he's really excited about something.
The way he runs and giggles and squeals when someone is chasing him.
The way he splashes water in his face in the pool and thinks it's so funny.
The way he rolls around in the floor, flopping his arms to the side and laughing.
The way he'll grab a blanket from the basket and go lay down on it when he's sleepy.
The way he plays with my hair when he's falling asleep.
The way he'll cuddle so good when it's nap time.

There are a million more things, but it's late and I need to sleep so I can get up and jog tomorrow morning - yet another thing I've decided I should be doing in my life ;) I hope everyone is wonderful, and I hope some of you will still stop by and check in with me every now and then. I assume I'll be back "for real" someday, but at the moment I have no idea when that would be. Until next time!